Who sold me this fairy tale?

In the past few months I've learned that I didn't need "him" to follow the plan, to live a good life, or to be a happy family. & I don't. So why do we feel incomplete or unhappy if we don't have "him"? Who sold me this fairy tale? & why am I missing out on life because of this? Why do we think we need "him" to love us so completely for who we are without reservation? When it really begins with us. It begins with me, loving me, flaws & all. Forgiving me, looking past & accepting my past & every part of who i am & will be.  I determine to live the life I want fulfilled & happy today. This is my time to be alive & living. Enjoying life with me. Marveling in God's splendor with me. Happy with me. Happy about being with me.